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Managing anxiety is not easy, especially when trying to leave a footprint in the world of film and television.

Some days it is hard for me to get out of bed, some days it is hard to show up and some days it is even harder to do my job.

But, what matters is that I do. I do get out of bed, I do show up and I still do my job.

It’s not that I don’t love what I am doing, I do.

I do what I do because I am passionate about it, it brings me happiness, it teaches me and pushes me outside of my comfort zone. Key word? Comfort zone. I live by this quote, “True growth happens when you step outside of your comfort zone.”

Well, if you live with anxiety, you are always outside of your comfort zone. So yay to us for always growing and aiming to be the best version of ourselves!

I love doing film and television, modelling, singing, acting and public speaking it’s just...I struggle. I struggle with anxiety.

People have asked me, “How do you do what you do when you have anxiety?”

The answer is simple, I manage it. A learned, well practiced daily routine is what keeps me aligned. Some days are ok, some days are good, some days are amazing and some days are on a higher frequency. I am okay with it because it reminds me to stay present.

Sometimes I deal with my anxiety by keeping busy (Not always the best). I work two jobs on top of building my career in film and television, writing, blogging, modelling and public speaking on top of trying to go to the gym and worry about eating healthy and getting enough sleep. Luckily, I only have few friends and they all GET IT. Somewhere in between all of that I travel, I go to the spa, I read, I get my nails done, I go to yoga and I hang out with myself. I truly enjoy doing things by myself, taking myself on dates and being alone. I am an introvert, most of us are when we have anxiety.

Who would guess that in my line of work, I am an introvert? Well, I have an on and an off button and let me tell you, there is no better feeling than switching to off.

You know, that moment when you rip off your eyelashes, wash your face, throw your hair in a bun, put on some granny panties, take off your bra, put on your sweats and a hoodie and just breath. Drink a cup of tea, unwind and be vulnerable in your own energy. It is the most rewarding feeling. I believe people with anxiety experience this feeling of relief more intensely than others. Therefore this feeling of relief, bliss and comfort is our reward, our reward for making it through the day! I like turning negatives into positives.

I LIVE by my calendar. I keep a planner that has an overview of my entire month. This allows me to plan my whole month, schedule everything in accordingly and know that I won’t miss a thing. I highly recommend this as it declutters your brain. When your soul stays calm knowing that nothing will be forgotten, you can mentally prepare for what’s to come. This way you know what you are up against and you can mentally prepare yourself!

I do my best to stay organized. I do my best to write things down so I don’t forget. It’s easy to forget when you have a million tabs open in your brain.

“To Do Lists” have become a ritual to me. It seems like I have a to do list for every tab open in my brain. I have a to do list for things that need to be done each present day, things that need to be done by the end of the week and things that can be done over a long period of time. I have lists for things that need to be done at home, at work, even at my moms house.


Anxiety and nerves can be a total buzzkill...if you let it be! Being nervous, means that you care and that is a good thing. If you don’t get nervous about anything, that means you don’t really care and if you don’t care, what is your purpose?

 
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I have also come to realize that opportunities will never present themselves unless you are ready to take them on. The universe will never give you something you are not ready for. Remember, whatever it is that you are doing, if it makes you nervous or it gives you anxiety, you are meant to go through those emotions and get to the other side so you can be a better version of YOU.

I have had people tell me that I experience anxiety because I am living in the future and not in the present. Doing things like keeping a well organized calendar and making to do lists are just two things that help me manage staying present. Each time I cross something off my to do list, it provides me with a sense of accomplishment and that, is very rewarding!

In the midst of keeping busy, I make sure to set time aside for me. Me time is down time. I mentioned earlier that keeping busy isn’t always the best way to manage anxiety but for me, that is what helps. Things like writing, blogging, eating healthy, working out, catching up on sleep and being outdoors are all things that help me manage. I have to say, being outdoors with nature is my top choice for anxiety management. I suggest a walk through the trees, finding a park to sit down in to write or read, an evening by a campfire or an evening of stargazing. The best medicine to help with anxiety is nature.

I do my best and that’s all I can do. In the end, I am only Human. Now, I want you to always do your best and remember that you are only Human. We all experience nervousness and that is


Michaella Shannon